Bored

Alright, I'm already bored w/ the "day" stuff. I give up. It's boring me.

I need a vacation. Like a "real" vacation. Away from here. I have options but we'll see. An old co-worker of mine moved to Vancouver and wants to rent a car and drive from there to San Diego in June. This would be the *ultimate* vacation for me. Ok, maybe not ultimate but it's something thats on my Bucket List. Someting I have always wanted to do. I think it'd be gorgeous.

Well, I see I didn't post this yesterday. How did I manage to forget to hit "post"? Oh.. now that I scroll down I see I have an error. Nice.

I donated blood today. After getting further in the process than last time I finally got into the "Bloodmobile" and told the girls the story of the last time I tried to donate... Um.. bad decision. Yet they said that had I not told them & I'd have donated they'd have had to destroy it bc I probably have a card on file somewhere that states they turned me away at some point. Nice. So here I am with perfectly good O- blood and they don't want it!? Hmmm... Ended up running to the Dr's office to get a note stating it's ok for me to donate w/ an irregular heartbeat and flew back up there to catch them before they left. Easy process, all went well until about 20 min after. I felt good so I passed on the OJ & cookies. BIG MISTAKE!!! HUGE mistake!!! Ick. I was sweating in places I didn't know I could sweat. I think the insides of my ears were even sweating. I was white as the newly fallen snow outside, and SICK. Ick. I went into the bathroom at working, thinking I had to throw up, then I thought as I was crouched down that I'd shit my pants (which I didn't). It was like I had no control over my body. So here I am, at work, laying on the nice cold bathroom floor. Then I got scared that I was going to pass out in there with the door locked and no one would find me. Finally went back to my desk only to go back in the bathroom again. Got a Sprite after coming out the second time. I felt a little better but not much. I will never take cookies & OJ for granted again!!! Gawd I felt horrible!!!! Now that I feel better, I'm proud of myself for going through with it. I'm glad that I finally sucked it up and took the time to potentially help someone. Yay me!

Time for this chick to go to bed. I'm dead tired, which is a GREAT thing considering it could be a week of insomnia!

Happy Trails my friends

Day 07

Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.

My daughter. The entire world changes when you have a child. You finally know the meaning of "unconditional love". 'Nuff said.

Day 06

I'm obviously running behind & not keeping up to my end of this bargain but I have to admit, I'm doing better than I thought I would by coming back here & blogging again. I always feel better when I do. Hopefully I can get back into the habit.

Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Well, this sounds morbid and I realize that but I hope I never have to bury a child. Children should out live their parents, not the other way around. Unfortunately it seems to happen all to often lately. I have had friends die in car accidents, suicide, overdoses, and unfortunately a still birth etc. This shouldn't happen. I hope I never have to endure the pain the parents of these people have had to.

Today is my best friends daughters birthday party and we're going to the little ski hill to sleigh ride. I honestly have no idea why they call it a ski hill when it's more of a sledding & snowboarding hill. This will be the 2nd Annual dawning of the raspberry snowsuit as well. It's hot. Hopefully I can find my matching goggles too!!! This was from last year.

Days 04 & 05

Ok I'm cheating because I forgot to log in yesterday. oops!

Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
I suppose I have to forgive the sperm donor and his family. I'm just not ready to. The sperm donor commited suicide when I was 16 months old. I will never understand how you can leave your child. The situation surrounding it is weird and I do realize that he was sick. You have to be sick to shoot yourself. You have to be sick to point a gun at your wife and your baby daughter. To beat the shit out of a woman. Those people aren't normal.

I need to forgive his brother as well. Forgive him for pretending to give two shits about me when I was growing up only to find out once I turned 18 that he really didn't give a shit. It was all a show for my Grandma. Well... Grandma's gone and I don't have to deal w/ that bullshit anymore. Fuck all of them. We may have the same blood in our veins but thats where it ends. A married couple with no children. Two nephews and a neice. A married couple that will be all alone in the end. No family. All. Alone. Fuck. Them. Both.


Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
This could be taken many ways. I'll say that 1) I'd like to travel. I'd like to go to Italy. I'd like to travel to other countries.
Another way, I'd like to know, before I die, that I've made a difference in someone's life. I made sure that I thanked one of my Grandpa's and one of my Grandma's before they died. Thanked them for what they'd taught me thoughout life, what an impact they had on me and my life and all the things that I'd learned from them. I can only hope that I have that sort of impact on someone at some point in my life too.
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Went to the farm today after work and picking up Bug. We got to see the brand new baby lamb that was born yesterday. His name is Charlie (I think) and he's sooo cute! All the animals are so happy there. K's done a great job w/her rescue. What a life she's had! You name it, she's done it. Full circle. Pretty interesting. I haven't sat down & talked to her in years but hopefully we can do that soon and she can tell me all her stories. She was a stripper, lived with the Rainbow people for a while...she's just done so much. Lived a very full life in very few years. I wish I could do that!

Later bitches!

Day 03

Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.

This one is tough. We've all made mistakes in life and while I'd like to say that I have no regrets, I can think of a couple. Neither of which I'm going to mention as I'd like them to just go away. What's done is done...

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In other news it was 70 last Wed & now we're back to freezing. Brrr! I'm so ready for summer!!!

Day 02

Day 02 → Something you love about yourself

I love that I'm a loyal person. I am always there for my family and friends when they need me. They know this and as a result I've FINALLY figured out, over the past year, who the users are as opposed to the genuine friends/ family.

Day 01

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.

I hate that I'm too trusting. I hate that I normally give people the benefit of the doubt before truly knowing them. As a result I have been burned numerous times. Slowly I'm learning to be a bit smarter...